Oh, as so many of you wrote before me, as if I am reading my feelings and the storm inside. I feel I am in an abusive relationship, there is nothing more I can add – you all expressed it before. I searched my mistakes for a long time, we have been married for 7 years. And even it was really hard during most of the time as someone wrote here I had HOPE. Now we are separated – in order to free myself, I left my children with him… I do not want to be together again, until I see changes on his part – although I have no idea how I will identify those changes. Currently I lost the hope, but something … at times awakens… and asks… is it possible that there is no hope? Since I am a positive person with I CAN DO attitude, it is not hard to think that way. But against my all believes I make myself not to forget the damages that I and my children were put through…. So hard guys…. it is so hard – they are so good in words and manipulations….. the thing that holds me though is that the answer is within us, we, not them can change our future, so why should we willingly put OUR future in to THEIR hands? I know it is easier said than done, I am in my battles as well, and consumes me totally.

Since it is an old topic, what happened to all of you? any good news? In this process I’ve just started readings and teachings of Buddha (Tina Turner’s movie motivated me). Hopefully I can find my answers as well. Good luck to all of you… But we should not waste another minute…