Thanks to everyone who answered me. It makes me feel a little bit better to know that i am entitled to be angry at her.

To anita: i think its fun because both my dad and i are now realising how my mother is. He loves her, and is not uncomfortable with the thing that i am angry at her. In fact he agrees with me. Maybe he did some tings wrong but in general he has been a better parent than her. Thats why i show no anger at him. He has his flaws, so has everyone, but in general my arguments with him didnt affect me as much as the ones with my mother because he always tried to fix up things. Also, a fun thing is that if my dad stands at my side, my mom will resent him (i think this is very manipulative) and said that he is always trying to make her look like the bad one in front of me. The other day, as he was taking me to college, he told me that he agrees with me and that she ignores him too sometimes by playing candy crush. My dad wants us to fix things and i understand him.

About all the anxiety and the OCD i developed, do you think my mom had something to do with? When i was a teenager i already thought sometimes i hated her. I never really thought my mom was the bomb like other girls do. Sure, shes fun, but when she laughs in front of everyone and your friends and brings up things from the past which i regret, its not fun. When i was 17 i was a very quiet girl, i never told anything about my love life, so she ended up taking my phone and tried to see what was there. She was so silly that she blocked it and i knew she tried to see it.

Thanks again. I’ll be back when my boyfriend leaves because he just arrived.