Dear ally:

I have experience with “the people who are supposed to love (me) unconditionally” and who do not… love me unconditionally.

My mother would have loved me if her condition was met, which was that I was born not a baby, but an adult who was financially secure, well mannered, a great sense of fashion, one who would never disagree with her and would never say or do anything that she disapproved of. Then she would have loved me, then she would have valued me as someone who can do something for her, someone who she could look up to.

This is my experience. But yours is different. If you would like to share more, about your mother’s suicide, if you are able and willing to share, please do. It reads like an event that followed and was followed by a lot of significant causes and consequences.

anita