Hi Nomad,

I understand where you’re coming from. But the thing is you can’t look at something that which you are – awakened presence.  (Title of the thread -“Can’t stop looking at awakening”). Looking at it will make you something separate from it.

If you have been trying to bring your attention back to the present moment, then I’m sure you have been following Eckhart Tolle’s teachings. Have you? Have you read any of his book(s)? If yes which one(s)?

I too have a similar kind of issue so can direct you with something or the other.