Dear gj:

I think you are anxious, suffering from ongoing fear, for many years. So you stay away from what increases the fear, or what feels like fear.

To feel passion for something, that is feeling excitement, an emotional/ neural stimulation. Fear is an emotional stimulation and a very unpleasant one.

I have suffered from a lot of anxiety for decades. So much so, that anything that causes excitement/ stimulation, like eating something tasty, also causes me anxiety. One neural excitation increases the other- a taste excitation increases anxiety, so does physical discomfort. Anything but calm has been difficult for me to experience.

What do you think?

anita