It isn’t that I wasn’t ready for commitment with Glen it was that the pressures I felt from him in the flow of a relationship just happened fast for me, but that’s how I interpret John may have felt. So for me to miss a good thing just because things were moving a little quick made me hypocritcal…I chose the latter smh

Yeah your right, they aren’t the same but maybe he filled that void of what I THOUGHT I needed/wanted from John. (Hindsight 20/20) I’ve felt in thoughts like John really did give me everything I needed I just constantly pressured him for more for some reason (he still cared about me but I can see it made him have resentments which lead to the break up that day). My mindset has changed on a lot of things I used to feel about dating and the relationship stages OVERALL.

I didn’t know him well enough..this is true. I feel like it felt correct at first because he filled that “I wasnt getting this from John-ness” almost feeling like my relationship carried over.. he may have done the things John didnt but as time went on it just seems like we didnt see things the same way and our communication was poor so it cause conflict. He wasn’t John…BUT he was Glen…and after time went by I appreciated him for who he was. There was a time when the good out weighed the bad. I dont know really know what happened there….

Yeah I understand what you said there about separating my thoughts of what I wish(ed) was happen(ed/ing) to what is ACTUALLY occur(ed/ing).