Dear Zeeza:

You are welcome. I am glad you are back to your thread.

Congratulations for being abstinent from self harm since September of last year and for completing two more quarters in your biochemistry studies.

In your commitments you stated your intent to “never feel worthless”. Unfortunately our feelings don’t respond to our intents. A commitment to do certain things and not do other things when feeling worthless is more doable, I believe.

Better have no contact with your mother and her boyfriend and anyone else who has hurt you and keeps hurting you. As you abstain from hurting yourself (self harm), also protect yourself from others hurting you. No one should be hurting you, not you, not your mother. Not anyone.

To continue healing, you need to be as safe as you can be, to be able to trust yourself to keep yourself as safe as it is possible for you.

anita