Dear Eve:

You are welcome. It seems to me that you are not clear as to what happens, and therefore I am not  clear either. Pay better attention, in the future. If you are in a conversation with a person and you get confused, distressed, better end the conversation and communicate later, when you are calm. In distress there is a blur, a fog, and the greater the distress, the thicker the fog.

Understandably, following a serious injury, the inability to walk, I assume, not to mention the inability to dance, was very distressing to you. And there is another surgery and more recovery to come. Maybe a short term psychotherapy will help, to deal with all this distress.

anita