Wow, thank-you everyone. I somehow feel less alone in this, but take no offense,.. I’m struggling so much that I don’t know how I can go on. This is only one of the things I’m dealing with and I’m so overwhelmed. I’m in what I call ‘protection’ mode.. I know, strange name for all this crap. I’m just wanting to sleep, so I don”t have to feel. Then when I sleep too much I feel aswful for being lazy.

There was a terrible loss in my country this past weekend, I know it’s been shared world-wide. For those that don’t know Canada lost 15 people in a tragic bus accident. These young men and coaches died. These young men were on their way to a hockey game. Some of them had promising careeers in Hockey. I wish I could take the place of one of those young men. My death wouldn’t be tragic.. believe me, it wouldn’t.  🙁

Prayers for Humboldt, Sask. # leaveahockeystickout, # oneoftheboyswillneedit # prayers4Humboldt

I’ll respond tomorrow to your kind messages. I can’t thank you all enough.