Dear Ryan:

You wrote earlier, “For  me it’s all about letting go of my past so I can be in the now”- to let go of the past more and more, that past needs to be attended to, early conflicts resolved, core beliefs re-evaluated. I hope this is part of your therapy.

I think that that “dark abyss” you mentioned is where you need to go, with therapeutic, professional help, within the safety of competent psychotherapy.

You are welcome to share here more, if you’d like.

anita