Dear Ryan:

It is a very, very… very long process, healing from anxiety. It takes literally changing the mapping of the brain, building new neuropathway into the old configuration. While working on this and doing the work that needs to be done, persistently and patiently, what we can do is tend to our behavior. It is possible to change certain behaviors sooner than later. Some can be changed immediately. Abusive behavior needs to be stopped immediately, before further healing, and that can be done.

I know expecting the worst from everyone. Specifically I expected aggression from everyone. Still do, but the expectation is weaker and not felt as often as before.

We expect the worst from everyone because we did receive the worst from at least one very important in our lives. Switching to first person, I received aggression from my mother, no safe place, no safe time when she was around.

anita