Dear El:

You wrote: “I have grown again and re found my self on a personal level in the sense of combatting my depression anxiety issues”- do you mean that you no longer suffer from anxiety?

If you are still anxious, experiencing less of it, perhaps, but still anxious, then I will follow with the next line of thinking connected to your career choice issue:

how did you feel growing up with a financially/ otherwise struggling mother, a single parent? Did you put your interests aside, your playfulness, your desires aside, so to attend to her, to make her life better?

anita