Social norms! Sigh! What stood in my way for several years.

It’s better now Anita. It’s the belief system that I have to let go. I am standing in my own way.

I have made huge progress in the last few years. I am proud of myself. To be honest when I see my friends so happy, I feel what mistake have I done. I worked so hard. I read so much self help books but look at me, with obsessive and depressive thoughts now. What the hell was i actually doing. Well  I’ll keep reminding myself of how much I have changed for the better.

I wish I atleast enjoyed myself in my 20’s. I can’t think of what I did to be facing so many obstacles in my life. My shitty karma has come to the fore probably. I am just praying and praying and praying.