Dear Gerold:

Your daughter, if she grew up in that cottage, could have a different experience there than you did. Just like your wife had a different feel for it, preferring sand over rock.

The new memories you could have made there, if you owned the property, if you built a similar cottage on it, those new memories wouldn’t be the same as the old.

The old is gone.

Once you see what it is that was and accept that it is indeed gone, lost into the past, the nightmare will be gone as well, I think.

Thing is, not all is gone. There is something that is still in you, not in the cottage, not in that property. That something perhaps wants to be brought back to awareness.

anita