He would yell over the phone. I read about breakup online and went on no contact. I didnt want to talk so that I could recover. But he said i was being an extremist , either i want him as a boyfriend or i dont want anything at all. I didnt know to make him understand that i was human with feelings and emotions. He’d call me immature, ” not enough understanding” . So i thought i was wrong and kept making myself better and better. This was all at the time when he was committed. I treated him with so much empathy and compassion. He didnt return half of that. When Im so loving and caring for him yet he finds it not sufficient then where am i going wrong. Im patient with him even when he yells. But he didnt even want to help me when i was depressed.
This is what gave palpitations, leading numbness in left arm. I would cry a lot to myself.

Today he tells me he is ready to do whatever. But how do i forget all this ?