Thank you michelle for sharing your story with me. Wow what you said about how your relationship started really resonated with me, it was almost a mirror to mine and B’s. I felt exactly the same, and it was also a real low point in my depression, I’d also just lost my home and someone close to me and I was very stressed, depressed and anxious. B was very flirty and as soon as we connected he made me feel So loved. He promised me everything and even said he was going to work to get the love out of me. Because I had explained that I can be closed off. I was so honest with him from the start, I told him all about my depression and anxiety and told him that if he wanted to walk away now, then I understood. He said I was worth the extra work though and that’s when I started falling in love. So many red flags that I ignored though. I feel like an idiot but I know it’s not my fault. The thing I miss about him most is the way i thought he loved me; it was all a lie though. His words told me they loved me his actions did not. He’s really screwed with my heart and head, I just hope he hasn’t set me back. I’ve really been working on myself lately trying to feel some self love and worth. I’m trying not to let him knock that back down and I’m really trying not to throw the brick wall back up around my heart. That’s the only thing to come out of this…for the first time in my life I’ve actually opened my heart up and i’ve dealt with a hell of a lot of feelings and emotions that id shut out for years and were crippling me. I really thought id found ‘the one’ with him though 🙁 I feel exhausted by it all now and a little lost. I’m fed up of feeling this way. Not an hour goes by that I don’t cry and that i don’t feel that awful gut wrenching heart ache pain, it’s making day to day life very hard atm