Dear deestrout:

You wrote in your original post regarding your son’s bio father: “I didn’t have much of a physical attraction to him AT ALL, but I didn’t want to lose him as a friend so I accepted being in a relationship with him”.

Did you feel with him “like a piece of meat, like an object”, similar to what you felt with your husband?

How did it feel to be like an object… do you remember feeling this way as a child, not in a sexual context, but otherwise?

anita