Dear Strawberry:

It could be a midlife crisis if your thirty plus years so far constitute half of the length of your life, I suppose. But you don’t know how long you’d live.

This thought above is very relevant to your post, I believe: you wrote that you are terrified at the thought of continuing to work like this till retirement age. Isn’t it the image of you being double your age that scares you, being an older or old woman?

I had a safe, secure, higher paying job myself, but I was afraid of doing that for the rest of my life. So I quit, many years ago. Well, I am now older anyway. Quitting didn’t slow down my aging process.

Will you let me know what you think about my reply so far? (I have more thoughts)

anita