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Hi Ally,
As someone who also grew up in a toxic environment and who like you believes that as a daughter you should still love and be there for your parents, I also need to tell you that as you mentioned above, it is not up to you to fix them or the situation. I am not sure how long you lived in this toxic environment or how old you are now, but what you need to start doing now is to take care of you. You need to start being there for yourself and start healing from your childhood and learn to love/accept yourself it is hard to do but its necessary so that you can have a good adulthood. Surround yourself with positive people as much as you can. Mostly stop feeling guilty for the way your dad is this is not your fault!
That does not mean that you need to cut out your family completely but maybe just distance yourself for a while let them reach out to you or if you see them do so in neutral grounds such as coffee shops or restaurants, you can also spend holidays with them. It is very possible that your family does not see what they are doing wrong and probably think this is how things should be. So there is probably not much point in talking to them about it. Of course I am judging without knowing them but it has been my observation that the parents of children who grew up in toxic homes will always deny doing anything bad to their kids.
I know that growing up in a toxic is really heartbreaking and hard unfortunately you do not get to chose the family you are born into. The good news is that when and if you are ready for that step and if it’s a path you want to take, you get to chose the person you want to marry and spend your life with, if ever you have children of your own then you still get a chance at having a happy home and family life because you will have learnt from your childhood and this time you will do it your way. Unfortunately, it will not bring back your childhood or undo the bad times but you will get to see a happy childhood through your own kids.