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Dear John:
I remember now. I didn’t see our previous communication here but I remember that at the time we communicated at length. I remember you lived then, as you do now, in your mother’s guest house in the Los Angeles area, the South Bay, I think. You were concerned about how high rents are, that you couldn’t afford moving out of your mother’s property. At the time you traveled to San Francisco, if I remember correctly, working on a project for a friend. You were also casually dating, cooking for a woman you met. You like cooking. And your mother, yes, screaming at you.
I think what it comes down to at this point, and has been the same for a long, long time, is that it is relatively comfortable for you to live in your mother’s guest house. You don’t make enough money to afford renting a place elsewhere, not having consistent income. You like the area, the LA area, I think, the beach and living on your mother’s property is comfortable. Now that she screams less, or not at all, what would motivate you to move out, I am thinking.
I don’t think you inherited anxiety and depression from your mother. I think her screaming at you created that. I still think it is a good idea for you to live away from her, far, far and away. But I don’t see it happening.
I think you started a new thread. I will go there next.
anita