Anita thank you for responding and for making me feel better, not by “making me feel better”  and “hugging” me but by being honest and  logical, even when I do something wrong. that’s why I always believe you. Thank you for that and for your time and effort.

Yesterday was tough when he texted me this but I thought I was okay. Then I woke up in the middle of the night with this panic and since morning I have been feeling not so well. Today I’m less worried about him, it passed, I deleted his numer and couldn’t care less if he texts me or not, but panic attacks always stay with me. Situations and people go, this one stays no matter what.

Okay I’ll do it today.