Lately I have been able to control my thoughts and think less about the past. But when they pop up ones in a while in my head, they really make me look at him with disgust.

He says he is very happy in the relationship now, sadly I don’t feel 100% the same way. There are times when I am with him I forgot about what he did and my other life problems, and there are times when I just have to force myself to look happy even when I feel bitter towards him.

As a Libra I find it hard to make decisions because I see opportunities in both sides. I have threatened him twice about breaking up with him and so far he is has not been reacting quiet positive to it. To sum his feelings, he just doesn’t want to get dumped. I spend a couple of moments each day to thick whether to break up or give it another chance, things have been so good between us and we have managed to regain the magic spark and the thrill. But somehow I have a war in my mind.

I don’t know how other people manage. Some will end the relationship and others fight for it, I am just lost.