So what do I do about John…just stop ?

Do I walk away? I don’t think I know how.

If I could have came to this conclusion all on my own I wouldn’t have went bk in the first place.

..I think.

And Glen. I almost every other day I reiterate to myself that the bad may not have been more than the good. But the bad was just too heavy for me and the person I AM.

I hold back and I keep myself from doing what I hope will fade at some point. The want to reach out to him…it’s been almost 5 months and we haven’t seen or spoke. 🙁

yet idk if there’s a world where a friendship or …anything really between could exist.

So what? Is everyone gone? We’re they all mistakes? This is one of those what do I have that correlate all these situations to not working.

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work and life are fine. Not any more or less fine than last time. I still have my plan, I’m going to be bk in school hopefully next year.

And hopefully move bk to where I lived before next year too.

My birthday is next month. Still don’t feel like I have much to celebrate again. But hey.

I wake up everyday so that’ll do for now lol