Dear E:

Yes, progress doesn’t happen over night and you are trying your best as you have for many years, working hard, trying your best, muscling your way through anxiety.

It is quite clear that you suffered a loss, an opportunity lost already, possible loss to recur because of that burned bridge and reputation. Got to accept that it happened and mourn those loses.

There is still hope though, but for it to be a reasonable hope, you have to learn to better deal with the anxiety. I write about anxiety every day here, if you click my names you can read what I wrote today about putting together a tool kit to use so to manage/ heal from anxiety.

You are welcome, and please do post again anytime.

anita