Thank you, I know you are right. I guess it’s the hardest breakup I’ve ever gone through despite it not being that long a relationship.
I guess what got me so attached was how she lovebombed me – she showered me with so much love, attention and affection that I couldn’t help but fall for her thinking I was her ‘one’.  Until this I wasn’t aware of rebounds which I guess I was to her following the breakdown of her marriage.
Even in the last month before ending it she would say things like she has never felt cared for in the way that I did, that she didn’t think it was possible to have a boyfriend who was also a best friend and that I was the most amazing cuddler she had ever had.
I know I should have walked away when she was texting other guys especially in my presence. I guess she is still rebounding all over the place at the moment and some of my friends have said she may even be going through a mid-life crisis. It probably doesn’t help that she still lives with her ex-husband so can only do casual stuff.
End of the day though she doesn’t want to be with me so I need to move on. I’ve blocked her on most social media but as yet can’t bring myself to block her on whatsapp as I just don’t want to close the door completely on her possibly reaching out although I think I may have to in order to move on – I still keep wondering everyday if today might be the day she does reach out which is probably holding me back from moving on.