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Hi Inky,
Thank you so much.
You’re absolutely right. My previous relationship was very dramatic and my ex hurt me many times. I should have left him long ago but I was so addicted to him that I decided to forgive everything he’d done. However once I decided to stay he changed and seemed much more caring though I couldn’t trust him anymore and I lost faith that this relationship could ever work, despite our love. We spent almost 8 years in this struggle, maybe that’s why it’s also so hard to move on.
I’m not sure if what I still feel for him is love or some kind of obsession mixed with guilt. Whatever it is, it doesn’t let me appreciate my current relationship, especially that I feel guilty about this part as well.
Unfortunately my parents had also very dramatic relationship and I’m aware that it might have affected my definition of love.
I think I do love my current boyfriend, though I’m not sure if it’s possible to love two persons at the same time.
Do you think time will ever help me?