Dear riris

First awareness and then therapy right? And that’s where you are! You are being self-critical is what I felt. You are bringing your self esteem down. It is easy to just blame yourself for all this. In this case that you talk about, the man is also toxic in some ways- he knew what he was doing and then he suddenly retreated if I understand. One begets the other. Find therapy and counseling that centers you and cleanses you of these things. People take advantage of us and seems like unknowingly you have let them. Everything has a reason. I wish you all the best in this journey.

Thanks for sharing candidly,

Gigi