Thanks for the reply Anita. Yes I do not know what I want. They say if you are not sure there is trouble, then there is. That’s where I am. I am too afraid to take any kind of step – I feel I can’t leave my husband and can also not be with him. I definitely need therapy.

Regarding my coworker, he is considering divorce but in a similar boat like mine. I am not sure what he wants to do right now also. I feel like I am in the eye of a storm.

there is calmness yet there is this craziness. In a perfect world I would leave my husband, and move on but somehow I don’t think that is the right thing to do right now!