The wedge was that my ex husband decided to put a trailer to live in on my property in spite of me telling him absolutely not but because the house is in both our names there wasn’t any thing I could do to stop him legally. My guy ended up deciding because I “didn’t do enough to prevent it”,  in his eyes, and he came to the conclusion that I really didn’t want to move on to the next step with him and backed off. And no amount of words would change his mind. In spite of me looking for jobs in his area, (oh also we live about 2hrs from each other), looking for houses with him, changing all my dentist, doctor stuff to that area, etc. To me it is something resolvable because I knew my ex husband would be leaving as soon as he could (he left after two months and while he was there he only stayed in the trailer when it was his time with the kids).

My conclusion was that he felt insecure about how I felt about him and rather than talking about it, he bounced before he got really hurt. But apparently it was a bigger deal to him, something that wasn’t resolvable. Of course that makes me feel like he wasn’t as “all in” to the relationship as I thought. It just sucks because we went from happy couple excited about our future to him thinking I didn’t want to be with him. Which couldn’t have been farther from the truth.

I just hate that it’s been half a year and our separation/break up is still as fresh as it was when it happened. I’ve never taken this long to get over someone. Even the thought of going on a date with someone else gives me anxiety.