Thanks Inky,

I think half of the problem comes from me not being able to say no/ actively flirting/ seeking him out. I have also experienced this before in other relationships and I think a lot of it comes directly from the relationship I have with my dad (e.g. putting him on a pedestal, not being able to say no – for fear of rejection).

I can see objectively that this is quite an easy situation to get out of, but in the moment itself, it is very hard when emotions cloud your judgement.

I am so aware of this and wanting to get out of it, I even messaged him in the hopes it would help e.g. he would stop flirting and give me some space, but even that in hindsight was me seeking validation.

I feel powerless to these emotions.

Jackie