Airene, we have talked about everything.  I have expressed to her that I do miss being able to do whatever, whenever.  Even on the weeks or weekends when i have my kids if something popped up, i could usually find a place for them.

With her kids, there is no one else.  her family says they will watch them, but when ever we ask there is always an excuse or time limit.

She does feel stress because she feels like her and her kids are a burden on me now.

I think our fights are surface related, however i know for me i feel some resentment about everything and that causes me to be angry or upset which doesn’t help.  I feel bad because i know she is doing everything she can, but i feel like i need more than she can give or will be able to give.

I do feel like a married couple with kids and no time for us.  The problem is that we never had that time with each other alone to really get as close or connect like we should.  I had that once before and it was amazing.  I want that with my girlfriend now.  I do fear if we don’t get that, then i won’t be able to last long enough for it to blossom into what it can be.