Dear Alia:

This small child, “already being affected by (your) issues”, if this is a small child, maybe a little girl who is living with you, then she needs much more than your  money. She needs your calm, the  calm in your voice as you talk to her, in your eyes and smile as you look at her, in your touch as you  put her to bed at  night. Aim at calm for her sake.

For that purpose of calm,  I think it is better that  you find employment as an employee, make enough money to pay off your debt and sustain shelter, food, medical care,  the necessities. With your anxiety,  better not start a business, I think, or anything freelance. Better have a routine, a schedule and a paycheck at the end of the week or month.

If your concern is the well being of this child, then outside  of providing for bare necessities, the best  you can do for her is appear calm, and encourage  her to do things for herself, be it small things, to achieve,  to  make things happen  in her young life, a cleaning chore or a cooking task. Praise her for job well done, give her the sense  that  she is adequate and successful in her endeavors. If you do that, there will be  no  one more awesome in her life.

anita