Dear monica:

Before you became “introverted at early age”, before you were “just awkwardly ‘there'”, you reached out to your parents with love,  again and again. All young children do. But they didn’t respond to you and so, they rejected your efforts to connect, to love-and-be-loved.

We forget our early  efforts to reach out and  forgetting, we think we were born that way,  “just awkwardly there”.

You wrote  about your parents: “I just wish sometimes they stop being logical for a  second and actually listen to me”- as if listening to one’s child is illogical.

To get un-stuck, it will not happen by reaching  out to your parents once  again. It will be about reaching out to someone who will respond to you empathetically, someone who will actually listen to you.

But you adjusted well to not being  listened to,  to not being  attended to by being just awkwardly there, by being introverted, not responsive, not inviting people to reach out to you, maybe missing opportunities, not responding to others who do reach out to you.

What do you think?

Here on your thread, I invite you to type your thoughts and  feelings. I will listen.

anita