Dear Elijah:

I suggest you keep seeking and taking  the help you need to  manage your anger  so that you are never again abusive to another, be it  a girlfriend or worse, your own children when you do access them.

I had  great  trouble managing my own anger but learned starting with my  first  quality psychotherapy and  ongoing  work to endure my distress without reacting to  it impulsively, any which way. For a long time  it was  about suffering that distress, wanting to say things but resisting the urge. There are different skills I learned in psychotherapy, emotional regulation skills, to lessen the intensity of distress so to be less  reactive.  My therapist referred to those  skills as a box of  tools and you pick a tool that fit the  circumstance at  any particular time, anything  from taking a long  walk outdoors too a  guided short meditation (mindfulness theme), to CBT exercises  (challenging a thought that caused  the  distress) and more.

anita