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Hi anita,
I don’t think at this point I have a choice to choose. I have been with the current for just over a year, we know each other inside out, we know each others family, we are the silliest around each other, he is just my bestest friend. I cannot imagine hurting him. My ex made me happy in a different way, us catching up made me realise we can have a good friendship but I don’t think I can be or act how I am (fully myself) with him like I am with my current. They are both two very different guys. My ex also has a girlfriend… So it all seems so wrong to even think about getting together at the moment, although he says he truly loves me and would drop everything just to build a life with me.
In terms of cons, my current is sweet and cares for me but when he is angry (occasions) he gets really angry and acts cold and I see a different side, but he always makes it up and understands how I feel after. My ex is also caring but I cannot fully be weird as I am with my current, I guess that is just a personality thing…
Although we decided to be friends, we haven’t messaged each other since so I’m not sure how that will work. I decided I have to force myself to let go and forget about him even though I still want him to be a part of my life, I suppose that cannot work in this world. I also wanted to be friends because you never know what the future holds and life can give us another chance at the right time but I can’t lie and say knowing about his girlfriend and what they get up to doesn’t affect me. Seeing him also brought back a lot of memories and feelings, I’m not sure what feelings.
Am I making the right decision? Do I still keep him there when I need someone to talk to? Or do I force myself to let go fully?