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Dear Nikkole:
Regarding your therapist input: “There are people who are having a harder time than you are…”- this sentence was not said with good intentions (“I’m sure her intentions were good”), it was said out of some anger, impatience. She lashed out at you having said that. There can not possibly be a good intent in that, not for a person with some insight and awareness. Maybe at other times her input was good, but not at that time. If she didn’t apologize for her damaging comment, she should have.
Regarding “this uneasy, underlying anxiety that always seems to be in the background every second of ever day”, this anxiety is likely to be the same anxiety, the same daily fear you experienced growing up when your mother was in her room and you were outside her room, waiting for the next time she comes out of her room and “stir drama” next. It is the anxiety of anticipating her next drama.
You wrote that you beat yourself up for leaving the nursing program, but don’t you beat yourself up for other things, every day, smaller things?
anita