Hello Anita,

I agree with you when you about accepting my reality for what it is, and to relax, which is exactly what I’ve been currently trying to work on especially through meditating. However, some days I’m okay with my reality and relax, and other days, like today, I am in full panic mode and don’t want to do anything but stare at the ceiling in despair haha. It has been very difficult for me to accept my reality, because I just don’t like where I’m at even though where I currently am (living with dad, working low paying job that I don’t like, not knowing what direction to take, being in the same spot for years) isn’t that bad, but just not where I want to be. So on a very daily basis, I resist it with my thoughts and emotions leaving me almost no room to relax.