Hello Anita,

I can’t thank you enough for taking the time out to talk to me each day, and to ask and understand my current situation. All of the points that you have listed above were very helpful, I found myself actually taking them in, and not resisting or disagreeing with any of them. I have decided that it is time for me to be by myself, and although I am not going to isolate myself from others completely, I am going to be taking a good amount of time to focus on myself and heal.

A lot of my energy has been going to other people (my parents, ex-boyfriends, boyfriends, strangers) and not to myself. That being said, I am going to continue to respond to my father as a roommate, as unfortunate as that is, and I’m going to be spending less time with my mom. I’m not cutting any of them off, just simply limiting the amount of interactions I have with them.

I have decided to end my relationship with a guy who I was with for 6 months because it has become toxic, and it would be best for both of us to go our separate ways, at least for now.

As far as my job, I agree with you on keeping it and seeing where it goes. When I feel ready to leave and have another alternative I may leave. The thing I really liked that you posted was taking classes for video production. I actually had a dream that I can still recall and it was of the world ending and I looked to this old man, and he said to me ” Is there anything that you wish you would have done?” and I replied with ” yeah, I really wish I would have gone to school for film.” So whether it benefits me in the long run or not, I’m going to at least give it a shot because I know I’ll regret not trying it at some point.

I also agree with you on that last point. Nursing is definitely not for me, and I give myself permission to let go of deciding to leave because no matter where I end up in the future, leaving that program was the best thing I could do for myself at that time in my life. I also don’t think that being a counselor or therapist fits me very well either. I don’t like hearing about people’s problems that much haha. I like to create things, be expressive, and imaginative. And maybe one day, I’ll finally let that side of me out again.

Thank you again for taking time out of your days to respond back. It really meant / means a lot to know someone else is listening (: