Thanks Anita, I kind of take some comfort in that and often wonder if her head overruled her heart with her relationship with me considering she has children.  I know that coming from a poor upbringing and background she always wanted to have for her children what she didn’t have.

I often wonder if she might reach out to me even if just from curiosity.  Do you think this is at all likely?  I do feel like she did have some feelings for me and the reason she took so long to decide between me and whoever this guy might be, was because I was there for her emotionally whereas she knew in the long run he would be better in terms of being able to provide the life she wants for her kids even in that was shallow and superficial on her part.  5 months on from our last contact makes me wonder if she did feel anything for me at all though as I would have thought if she felt anything she would have even if it was to just see how I am doing.