Dear Ben:

I didn’t want to mention it before because I avoid bringing up any kinds of diagnoses in my communications with members. For one, I am not a medical doctor, nor am I a doctor (PhD) of any kind, neither am I a health care professional, and  even if I was a medical doctor, it wouldn’t be responsible to diagnose a member based on this kind  of communication online.

Therefore the following is not my diagnosis of you: there is a term, ROCD, it  stands for Relationship Obsessive  Compulsive Disorder. Lots of anxious people are obsessed (keep having the same thoughts, or the same theme of thoughts) regarding their romantic relationship, doubting if they love their partner, checking repeatedly what they feel, to reassure themselves that they still love the partner, and so on, just like your wrote here in your most recent post: “I can’t stop focusing on negative thoughts… searching  for any kind o f good feeling in order to reassure everything is great”.

If you are not familiar with  the term, OCD with the R in front, maybe looking it up will help. Let me know if it does, will you?

anita