Dear Ben:

I didn’t understand what you meant by “maybe something grow that night”?

As far as  your last two lines, when you get those ROCD thoughts again, why don’t you do the following exercise (now or then, anytime). Stand in front of the mirror, close your eyes, and  think “I am a giraffe”, then open your eyes: are you a giraffe?

Another exercise, sitting down, look at your hands and  think: “I am dead”, then move your hands. If you  can move them,  it means you are not dead.

Simple exercised, do them when  you get the  ROCD thoughts.

anita