Dear Anita

I hope now when you are reading you will be fine and happy. Dear Anita I stop check my phone or check him even . And today one of my friend from other country contact me and ask me how is it and I told her don’t ask about him we are not together and it was the first person who I told this to her. Now I have more freedom but I don’t want jump from this relationhsip to other relationship now I feel better just I am so scared how to control my life with out him support my self and I always be depended on him . Now I must just depend on my self .

Some times I miss his words his fake hopes nice words he said me all the memories we had and I ask my self is it  possible after him I accept other man and replace with him.

But for sure I understand I never try to get close to married man in the end I am looser.its me who hurting so much .now I am sure he is sitting with his family and enjoy his life and thinking about find other lover  because it his life style . All the talking about I am his first and last love his internal love for ever he never leave me he want me for ever he see his future with me he only love me he only want me need me miss me

He called me his treasure and he never loose his treasure he called me my beautiful princess love of my life my oxygen I can not live with out you …..my god how he knows to play with my emotin he knows I never heard such words in my life no body love me and say these words and it was my weak point .

Some people around me know about him not so much full of details just know I have bf so now it’s time I say we break up finish and I am moving to other city I hope Evey thing go on fine .and I always be like this I ma just worried again some think happens I back to him …and I am sure I am not ready for dating and new relationship