Hi Anita

Yes that’s right! I don’t want to have to repeatably bother someone but irrational thoughts take over which leads to asking the same things over and over again or messaging someone repeatedly. So recently for example I messaged my friend because I was upset and needed someone to talk to to but because he didn’t email back immediately I sent him more messages. I went to stay away from my phone!

Yes I understand I shouldn’t and I’m really trying to work on it as it’s not healthy for me or them. What ways did you try?

In the last four years…during undergraduate I became friends with this guy, became really good friends. I then developed feelings for him through helping him (he would only really talk to me at times) but then once he was better he totally forgot about me and would emotionally torment me at times. It was my fault in the sense I let it happen. He did abuse the friendship trust at times and I didn’t really say anything to him as I was holding on. That then led onto me meeting my online friend (the subject of this blog). So whenever he disappeared I would get anxious and start over messaging him as again I thought I would lose him.

What I should have said is that with my friend, he helped me through alot but recently told me I was using him as substitute for professional help and it was putting him in a awkward situation. After that I felt like I had drained him over the three years. Which led him to say everything was one sided. So it sucked his energy in the process? Yes you’re right I get scared a lot

Yes, I have a very up and down relationship with my parents. Very volatile at times.

Thanks!