Dear Csaba:

You are not  attracted to “a nice girl, feminine, giving, caring, has high sexual needs, good with children, loyal, good communicator. You are instead attracted to “‘bad girls’: tattoos, piercing, colorful hair, drug-alcohol problems, bad  family, bad communicators, selfish etc”

I don’t have any advice for you at this point. But I may if I understand your situation better. And so, if you want to look deeper into reasons and  motivations, please answer the following:

You wrote about your parents, “father is a masculine man and mother is a feminine woman”.

How did your mother behave when she  felt angry at  your father? At you?

How did your  father behave when he felt angry at your mother? At you?

anita