hey,

it sounds a really tough time. Sorry to hear that. Are you able to get yourself back into education or work? Or is that a bit too much at the moment?

Overall, it sounds like you’re worrying a lot which is understandable, things sound a bit disjointed which at your age again is normal.

Have you gone to see a doctor? Have you considered speaking with a therapist if you could get this funded in any way?

I think it’s important for you to know, there are many other people who are feeling the same as you out there, you are not alone. You may come across them in your daily life and you could probably recognise this when you see them so keep an open mind if you can.

On the psychology/personal development etc, have you seen a guy on youtube called Actualized/Leo Gura/actualized.org? He is a personal development guru and may be something of interest?

Good luck.

B