Thanks for the reply GL your kind words and advice are very much appriciated.

I do think its just her that im atracted to we just clique. I do think that sexuality is fluid as well i just have never experienced this type of thing before.

I dont know the how far the affection goes either i just know when im around her im happy, and we just vibe and have a lot in common ( i realize this sounds cheesy)

Its so hard becuase my boyfriend is really struggling with it, granted we have been having issues with our communication and connecting for a while now. It feels like we both have walls up and niether of us will let them down. I think we will be able to work through it though. It makes sense to me that hes upset about whats going on with her and i but hes being so closed off he thinks im hiding things and hes scared that these feeling for her are going to grow stronger over time(her and i have to be around eachother a lot this year). I dont think he would be comfortable with me exploring things with her openly unfortunatly. And its not that i want a relationship with her i just want things to be nateral if things happen they happen kind of thing i dont want to hold back if situations present themselves.I feel like theres things about myself i need to explore, and maybe hes not ready for that or willing to be apart of it.