Hi Maya I ready your story and as you said it’s similar to what I’m experiencing without the heart ache of the family finding out. All I can say is that I never thought this would happen not for a second did I think anyone would find out. But due to an unexpected situation it all came out in the end.

I think it’s helpful to listen to others thoughts on the matter but it doesn’t stop you from hurting. I try and put myself in his wife’s shoes but it doesn’t stop me wanting him. I feel like I am a bad person for that and yes I am lonely and vulnerable so I know that makes me want him more. I don’t know if I’m ever going to see him again.

If he told me tomorrow that he didn’t love me I would find it easier to move on.

Mags