Hi Anita

I panick a lot but do love him.

That’s fine, I’ll expand. Having CBT as well

1. Love- immediately his name comes in to my mind. I’ve failed him and don’t want him to think I don’t love him because I do.

2. Hate- I hate myself for ruining everything I can never leave anything alone until I’ve ruined it. I hope he doesn’t hate me.

3. Guilt- I wish I’d never lied in the first place and now I’m trapped in that lie.

4. Change- I want to change my ways, I don’t like feeling like this. I want to change for myself and also show him i can because he thinks i can’t

5. Lost- I feel so lost in general. I feel lost because he was my safety net, always there and now everything is so blurry that I’m not sure if he’ll forgive me.

I’ve tried to be as detailed as possible

Thanks!