Anita,

I don’t know.. I have two quite unforgiving sisters. However, I don’t know if they should be dragged for this.

One thing is that I always knew he was going to be bad for me, ALWAYS. It was almost like I was looking to prove it, and then later prove it wrong. And because I knew he was going to be bad, I feel in a way less entitled to harbor these feelings. I was complicit from the beginning in a way but of course I still don’t think he has the right to do the things he did. It just is complicated when intellectually you have all these observations and yet with your emotions you give in to someone. It just doesn’t make sense when it’ all over.