Hi Mark,

Thank you reading. I’m currently 27. The business I’m working on is an idea I’ve had for a while now, and decided to make an app. The app is what I’m working on. I’ve also been looking for marketing jobs. I’ve tried social media and film too. The whole process is daunting : ( For quitting jobs it’s usually been because they weren’t covering my basic needs and I felt I needed to try to get a full-time job, or the boss was intolerable. I’ve noticed I attract a specific type of boss that is a bit toxic, overbearing, and generally hires and fires. I’ve had at least three bosses that have hired and fired others, in addition to me, it seems like part of the pattern is that I get desperate and am forced to take a job that’s sort of the one that everyone else won’t take. I’m pretty sure that most reputable employers wouldn’t hire me. I’ve just never been offered a full time job with one – it seems like most people wouldn’t hire me because I’m a bit charismatic. I’ve been told multiple times that I will not be hired for a job because “I’ll be bored.” It’s a tiring conversation.. I hate JOBS! At a certain point I just hate them so much that it’s a no. I’ve had enough. I’m fed up. I just feel like a 9-5 job isn’t for me. I’ve never felt like it was my destiny.

I’m ok with doing a business, I think it’s a better fit for me. I’ve realized the issue is not the jobs! It’s that I have a block to making a living wage. Doesn’t matter if the money is coming from a job or a business – if there’s a possibility for me to have my bills covered, food on the table, and a roof over my head, I’ll sabotage it. Not sure why. I had a traumatic experience with my photo teacher in college yelling at me about my plans for my career. I’m not sure what happened with that which made me have doubt/fear/ or just energetically rattled me in terms of my career. But before that I usually didn’t have a problem making money. Now I do.

But I’ll figure out this cycle of setbacks with your help – I’ve realized it’s not going to happen on my own